after all the shame.
Thursday, October 16, 2008, 5:58 AM
where have you gone to? have you decided to leave again?



you promised. you promised you wouldn't let go.



but if you've let go again, allow me to say this:



shame on me. shame on you. and shame on both of us.



shame on you. because you again broke another promise. you became the monster you swore you'd never be. you broke the heart you said you would love and value. then again, it's not like you've never done it before. because you have. countless of times. and this is why i say shame on me too.




shame on me for even handing you my heart. i should've known better. no, i know better. i just refuse to work towards that better option. why? i don't know--maybe it's because i love you too much? maybe it's because i'm still hoping that one day, you'll realize that i've been standing here all along, with my arms outstretched to welcome you, and with my heart ready to sacrifice everything for you. maybe it's because i'm still looking forward to that one day, that when i open my door, you're there to tell me that you love me. illusions--they're all i ever live on. so shame on me.



and shame on us both. for reasons we both know why. we've made the wrong decisions together; we chose the wrong path together. we didn't think. we didn't think.



but, after everything. i still love you anyways.